What's Makin' Me Cry Today

We bought this CD for my little brother who has been called to serve a mission in the Phillipines Tacloban mission starting in September. Because Cameron loves all things music and all things Nashville, (that's where he served his mission) we bought a copy for ourselves too. One of the songs has been stuck in my head for the past few days and I've sung it to my boys every time I put them down for naps. How wonderful it is to find a song that, when I sing it, I mean every word.

Bless my son
Bless my precious one
Give him the faith to find the strength of Ammon
Give him the power of Paul in his tongue
Give him the spirit to soften hearts of stone
And bring him home
And until he's done
Bless my son

It brings such a spirit of peace into the room as they lay their sleepy little heads down for naps. They always smile up at me while I sing it and swaddle them. It calms my heart and strengthens my gratitude. Oh how I love them.

Focus

At heart, I am an old-fashioned girl. I dream of a world where my little family is the only thing on my mind. Where I don't jump on Facebook for a minute, only to realize naptime is over and I haven't accomplished one little thing on my list. I dream of healthy meals, a clean house, a lunch packed for my husband, love in our home, little feet running down the halls as we play cowboys and indians, masking tape race tracks down the stairs, and a whole pantry full of fresh canned fruits and vegetables. I dream of big breakfasts, Christmas mornings, and laundry out on the line. I dream of a world where walking to school is still OK because you don't have any creepers in your town. A world where there isn't total garbage on the TV.

I couldn't fall asleep tonight. So I picked up the book on my mother-in-law's nightstand and started reading. It's called Daughters in my Kingdom. And this quote stood out to me. It practically jumped off the page. I had to wake Cam up, and we talked about what I needed to do.

"The average woman today, I believe, would do well to appraise her interests, evaluate the activities in which she is engaged, and then take steps to simplify her life, putting things of first importance first, placing emphasis where the rewards will be greatest and most enduring, and ridding herself of the less rewarding activities." -Sister Belle S. Spafford

Truth is, I have design work coming out my ears right now. I have a waiting list that just keeps getting longer. I've spent a great deal of time working on my new website/blog in order to streamline these orders. I know that once I launch it, I will probably have more business than ever. [That is meant to be realistic, not cocky.] But this is not a good thing. I really enjoy designing, don't get me wrong. I LOVE IT. It is so fun for me to have a creative outlet, but my clientele has gotten so far out of hand. I have a hard time saying no to design requests because each project sounds so FUN. But then I bite off more than I can chew, I stress, I'm mad that my focus and talents are not being used to better my family first and foremost and dang it, I REFUSE to miss a single day of living my boys' childhood. They deserve an undistracted mama. It's not that they need more time from me. They sleep a lot. I get a lot done. When they are awake, I am most always talking to them, teaching them about the world around us. This morning, they sat in bouncer chairs looking out the back doors. I sat against the door facing them and ate my breakfast and talked to them about the bunnies and birds and flowers and trees. I took in their details. I loved it. They sit on the counter with me while I make dinner. Gray is so close to rolling over and I heard Nash's belly laugh for the first time tonight

It's not that they need more of my time. They need more of my focus. My creativity should be centered around how to encourage imagination in these boys. How to make them fearless in this world. How to help them be strong. I should be focused on being spiritually centered so I can recognize when my husband needs me, and how I can help him best. I should be finding joy in reading good books, learning new skills, experiencing the world with my 3 men instead of being glued to the screen and then being so tired from working all day that once Cam comes home all we can do is watch TV ON A SCREEN. Heaven forbid we play a card game.

Also, could there be a worse distraction than Facebook?! ugh! It kills me. And yet, I love talking and joking around with my siblings. I love sharing tidbits of my marriage. I love showing off the boys a little bit (what parent doesn't?). Don't you worry, the blog isn't going anywhere. I keep so many details of our little family in these posts that I don't record anywhere else. It is so easy for me to just jot down my thoughts super quick. I love that I can include the pictures and journaling all in one space. And I really do feel like I can say anything I want to. But I have got to figure something out for Facebook. How do you keep from "hiding your light under a bushel" so to speak, without distracting from the most important things?

I have enjoyed rekindling old friendships from high school on Facebook. There are people I have learned so much from on there. I wish I could just filter content. I don't know. Maybe I need to clean out my friends? I need your advice, straight up.

My heart aches for a balance I don't have.

Wedding Invitation Design: Audrey

I had a complete ball putting together this invitation for Audrey and Aaron. We were under a time crunch because the sweet couple had friends coming from London, but Audrey had such a great idea of what she wanted. We definitely caught the same vision! I wish them all the best. They were a pleasure to work with. I love when my clients aren't afraid of a little color!

For more information on my rates and design queue, please contact me!

Oh Mariah

When I was pregnant with the boys, I posted about how they love Mariah. Today, "All I want for Christmas is you" was stuck in my head. I caught myself singing it every now and again and the video is what happened every time. What can I say? My boy loves him some Mariah. {sidenote: I sing to the boys all.the.time. There is never a reaction anywhere close to this. Cracks me up.}

Not sure how Gray feels about miss Mariah. He was sleeping. He has had a rough, drooly, day. 3.5 months is too early for teething, so what's going on? Thoughts?

4 Years & Counting

4 years ago I met Cameron Call at EFY [an LDS church camp for youth 14-18]. We were counselors. And we were bought, sold, and paid for before we'd known each other 5 days. We enjoyed 2 weeks of a whirlwind summer romance that should probably be written into a novel. And that summer romance turned into an everyday love that I still can't get enough of.

Friday, we were driving up to Flagstaff for an open house so all of the Flagstaff peeps could meet the boys. On the way there, Cameron said,

"Do you realize that tomorrow is exactly 4 years since we met?"

I am always blown away by all the little details he remembers. We kept talking about how fun it was to meet at EFY, how the Flagstaff EFY session was probably going on right at that moment. We realized it was Friday, which meant there was a dance. And then we decided we HAD to stop by and just see if they would let us in.

We strapped the boys into their carriers and walked, hand-in-hand, past the dorms we stayed in [and the stairwells we'd make out in after lights out...], past the cafeteria where all sorts of flirting through our participants happened [One of Cam's boys sat across the table from me, asked me my name to be sure he had the right girl, winked at me, stood up and walked away], through the parking lot where we took our very first picture together, and up the stairs where I heard Cameron play the piano for the first time. I tracked down the session director because I knew asking a counselor would just result in a "no."

I introduced myself and said, "I know you don't normally do this because I used to be the counselor that kept everyone out of that dance...but my husband and I met here 4 years ago. We were counselors at this session and we were wondering if we could just dance to one song. We'll keep to the back and try not to attract any attention..."

The session director's wife clapped her hands and was so excited. We got permission to head upstairs to the ballroom for the next slow song. I.was.giddy. We danced to a Rascal Flatts song. And Cameron kept his hand on my shoulder blade like he was supposed to. And then he kissed me quick at the end of the song like he's not supposed to. And the lyrics "...this life becomes all that you want it to..." kept playing over and over in my mind.

I am seriously the luckiest. What on earth did I do to get this handsome man to look at me like that?

Also, my boys were swarmed by the ladies. Camera flashes were everywhere. So much for not attracting attention. They're already lady-killers. Watch out stake dance circuit. You have 14 years to prepare yourself.

And for kicks, here's that picture from 4 years ago. :)

Pillow Talk {Ants}

This just happened:

*Cam scratches his bum*

K: Feel better?

C: Sorry, my bum itches. I think an ant bit it or something.

K: What?

C: There were ants on the couch last night. I killed two of them. Big ones.

K: I seriously doubt an ant crawled up your leg, down your pants and bit your bum.

C: You have no idea what the ants are capable of.

3 Months Old & Some Other Things

My babes are 3 months old. Time is just flying! Things have changed a lot in the past month. I have gained a lot more confidence as a mom. I took the boys out of the house for the first time. We went out to lunch with my Dad who was in the valley on business. I was so dang proud of myself. I got up and had my a-game on to get the boys ready, and cute, in CLOTH diapers [going out for the first time...scary!!], and on schedule. I looked good too. Make-up, showered, hair done, etc. And I was 15 MINUTES EARLY! And I got to his office. Drove straight there. Didn't even get lost once. And it was locked. So I called and asked him if he was there. And he said no...and if it's locked, I'm at the wrong place. UGH! He was at his NEW office, a half hour away. So I packed up the boys again and got there about 20 minutes late. Swing and a miss. But lunch was fantastic. And my dad had fun showing me his new office and showing the boys off a little bit. :) I love seeing him take pride in my boys.

My brother had a basketball game down here. He's not very good at telling us what's going on, so we left as soon as Cameron got off work and headed to the tournament. We got there for the last third of the game, but Rick had played a bunch in the first half, so we didn't get to see him play. That's ok! We spent some quality time with Grandpa and watched two other teams play. I also got brave and nursed the boys in public. Woo! Nursing takes so much less time than pumping/bottle feeding. Since then I've nursed the boys in the car a couple times, at a mexican restaurant, at church, etc. I love how much freedom it gives me. I don't have to be so calculated when we just want to get out of the house for a bit.

We bought the boys white shirts for Mother's Day. It makes me so happy to see all 3 of my boys ready for church. They look so handsome! I snapped this picture on my phone during Sunday School a couple weeks ago. Cuties.

The boys are so close to being big enough for the Bumbo chair. Right now they can each handle about 10-15 minutes before their necks get tired of holding up their noggins.

The boys surprised Dad with an early Father's Day present before the Call reunion this year. We have been trying to find a good deal on baby carriers for the boys for a while now. I found these two on craigslist and went to pick them up in time for camping. So glad it all worked out! Cam loved them. And they were life savers at the reunion.

The morning of the reunion we discovered the wonderful thing that is showering with the boys. It takes so much less time, makes less of a mess, the boys enjoy it more, and we get a shower too! I am a huge fan. Plus, how cute are these boys? Seriously.

I was so excited for the reunion because the boys would finally have the chance to wear the moose jammies I got at one of our baby showers. I LOVE moose. And the jammies were too dang hot to put the boys in since we moved down to the valley of the sun. Seriously, look at those feet!

If these faces are any indication of what I'm in for, I'm pretty dang excited. The mischief has already begun.

We put the boys in hoodies for the first time, too. CUTE!

As for how camping with these two yahoos went, it was alright. We survived. Cam called it "relaxing." I'm not sure that's the best word to describe the weekend, but yes, we did have a good time. lol. We set up our tent, put the pack n play inside, blew up our air mattress and high-fived when everything fit. [barely]. However, naps throughout the day went terribly. It was really windy and the tent kept scaring the boys awake. No sleep all day made me really worried about the night. And so we camped on the floor of Wayne and Adrienne's 5th wheel. The boys slept six hours straight. I, however, did not. I was so paranoid that the boys would wake everyone up that I laid awake just waiting for them. I figured it was my job to make sure everyone slept well. And they did. So I guess that's called a success.  The next morning, we got up, fed the boys, bundled them up and sat in the sunshine watching the seemingly endless 4-square game. The Calls really get into it and made it way fun to watch. I loved the two girls in the picture below. They were so absolutely opposite. Jackie was as much of a tom-boy as I've ever seen. And Allie was as feminine as camping gets. Too cute.

This picture was right after Amberlee dethroned Adrienne in the top square. She was so proud of herself.

That day, we put the boys to sleep in the trailer. And they took a 2.5 hour nap without budging. Everyone was happier. :)

The boys are the light of our lives. I can't believe they're already 3 months old. A LOT happened last month. Here are a few of the details:

1. I love hearing Cam on the baby monitor calming the boys down. Melts me.


2. Got my milk back. YAY! [Posts coming soon on this...per your request. :)]


3. The boys are napping SO well now, thanks to Emilee. She gave me a clear plan to teach my boys how to sleep. I owe her BIG time.


4. I made cloth wipes and LOVE them. I used to think that was where I would draw the line, but really? So convenient to be able to just wrap them up with the diaper and throw everything in the wash instead of having to track down a garbage can.


5. Gray now often goes by "Granger Danger." The kid has a lot of fluids...ha.


6. Both boys are starting to find their voices. I need to post some videos of them chatting away as soon as I figure out how to do that. I love hearing them talk. Adorable.


7. They have each grown over six inches since they were born. They are going to be HUGE.