1 Month Old

Gray Left, Nash Right

My sweet boys are a month old already! How did that happen? I feel like just yesterday I was in the hospital for monitoring. If the rest of their childhood goes this fast, I better start writing things down. I've learned that's the only way to keep myself from panicking about life passing me by.

I've seen a lot of cute things done with monthly updates, numbered onesies, cute photos, etc. I've been told that I'm the kind of person people expect that sort of thing from. However, I have no idea what I would do with pictures like that in the long run. I don't want to stress myself out every month trying to get these boys to cooperate and they tend to look darn cute with minimal effort on my part, so long as I don't mess with them too much. It's when I try to complicate things that everyone gets stressed and sad.

I did have the realization though that we will probably celebrate the 9th of every month for the next year, just like we celebrated the 2nd of every month for the first year of our marriage. This month, we took the boys to meet the wonderful people at the fertility clinic where everything started. Dr. Foulk and his staff are incredible. I'm so grateful for them and the friendships and blessings that have come from that relationship.

This month has been full of cuddles, spit up, smiles, cute faces, thousands of kisses and laughter.

Favorites from this month:

1. Cam was changing Nash's diaper when Nash projectile pooped on him. Cam put his hand down to block it and immediately Nash started peeing. Completely exasperated, Cam just starts laughing and says "...Stop! Stop it!"


2. At one point, Gray was pooping, peeing, hiccuping, burping, and spitting up simultaneously. Poor guy just looked up at me with each hiccup as if to ask "what is going on, mom?"


3. I feed the boys at the same time, most of the time. Gray likes to touch Nash while they eat. Nash doesn't like to be touched while he eats. It's pretty entertaining.


4. The boys make some seriously great faces after they eat. Eye-rolling contentment and huge smiles. It's wonderful. I know those smiles are just gas smiles, but they make me melt.


5. We've figured out bathtime. The kitchen sink is where it's at. The boys love the warm water and calm right down. It sure helps them sleep better at night, too.


6. Nash was fussy one night after the 3am feeding. I rocked him for about a half hour until he fell asleep, which I've never had to do before, but I really loved it (for the first bit). This morning, Gray just needed some cuddle time before the day started. We hit the rocking chair for a few minutes and enjoyed the quiet. I love being a mom. I love being their mom.


7. We've really enjoyed taking the boys out for walks. They generally sleep through the entire thing, but yesterday they were so content in the sunshine, just looking around at everything.


8. They sleep really well right now. We put them down to bed at 8 or 8:30 and go back up to feed them at 10:30. Every time I walk through the bedroom door at 10:30, my heart just soars because they're still there. They are our boys. They get to stay with us forever. This is a dream come true in every sense of the word.


9. I generally try to tackle the middle of the night feedings on my own because Cam has to get up super early and go off to work every morning. I have the option of sleeping in so long as the boys cooperate. He doesn't. Sometimes, though, I really need his help. (Tandem nursing is tricky...) Cameron is pretty groggy when that happens. This results in some pretty great conversations. (Cam: Don't worry. I packed their bags. Me: Oh? Where are they going? Cam: The Dark Side.)


10. Gray is a very voracious eater. Once he figures out it's time to eat, he gets so dang excited. Noises, stretching, arms flailing. It's quite a production. Nash generally just latches and goes. When Gray starts "being Gray", Nash will stop eating and just watch him with an expression on his face that says "What is your issue, dude?" It cracks me up every single time.


11. Gray spit up in Nash's ear.


12. We read a page out of the Book of Mormon board book every night for our family scripture study. One night we read the story of Nephi building the boat and talked about how we're going on a boat this summer at Lake Powell and we will be on the houseboat with all of our family, just like Nephi took his family. Last night we read about King Benjamin and how sleeping is helping Mom and Dad and makes Heavenly Father happy.


13. Praying for our sons by name.


14. The first night we were home, Cameron wasn't used to all the little noises the boys make in their sleep. For the first 3 hours, Cameron probably asked me "what's wrong with them??" 15 times. We got him some ear plugs. He only had to wear them for 2 days.


15. General Conference. Cam and Nash on one couch. Gray and Me on the other. Pure contentment.

So, happy 1 month gentlemen! You sure are handsome.